Sundays unfortunate events...

Sunday... A day I always look forward to! And yet today as I was excited to be in church with my family and friends I was not there in spirit. I had struggled the night before with sleeping because my heart started to act up again and also my dog decided he was going to be a big baby and kept coming in my room waking me up... :-) I woke up EXHAUSTED but ok. I thought eh I'll just deal with it! We got to church and my body literally started to crash. I kept thinking I can make it I CAN! After singing I was in so much pain I decided it was not worth it and stepped out to take my meds. I knew that if I took these meds I would likely fall asleep because of what the meds are designed to do. When my heart starts acting up it beats REALLY fast and off rhythm causing pain in my left side of my chest and lungs. The meds that the Dr gave me are made to slow the body down. It really works and relieves the pain but also slows down the rest of me often to the point of sleep. Even with 1/2 of a pill. So I knew that taking the pill meant I may be exhausted but the pain was so bad I knew it was: sleepy and less pain; or awake and crying in pain. HMMMM Sleepy and less pain it is! I fell asleep several times during the sermon and felt horrid about it but was still in alot of pain. I wanted so bad to go home but did not want to leave at the same time. Dad saw that I could not take it any longer and had us all leave church before it was over, it was good that we did :-( We got home and I went STRAIGHT to bed and fell asleep feeling horrid. I really was upset because this was my first weekend home in almost forever and we were planning on going to see a friend get the eagle scout thing (sorry dont remember exactly what it is called) and another was going off to be a missionary. We were going to go to these events as a family and instead I felt worse than horrible and had lost movement bc of the meds. Becca stayed home to watch me and believe me you know you are bad when your 14 yr old sister says " I'd drive you to the hospital but the Van is gone and I dont know how to drive stick and I dont have a license. But I'd still drive you if the van was here even if it was breaking the law." I slept for like forever and Becca watched me the whole time... She was super sweet! We watched some super old movies and I tried to be as comfortable as possible and she tried to help as best as she could. I was really upset because I THOUGHT I was getting better and then this happened and was worse than before. I did make it through the day but it was a hard one... If you could keep me in your prayers I'd REALLY appreciate it!
In closing I wanted to share this picture I took at church: